But when I fought back, I became excited. I lay there, spilling my essence onto the bed with my body shaking and desperately wanting to begin again, to feel the pain and that pleasure simultaneously. Pornhat A dear friend taught me that I needed those men to do as they pleased, in order for myself to reach utter satisfaction, paradise, and true sexual pleasure. His belt buckle left welts that didn’t fade for days and the bruises on my inner thighs kept me from my horse back riding. I have fulfilled fantasies, I have dreamed dreams and then lived those dreams. I told no one and suffered through the encounters with silence.
